Happy Halloween from the designated witch

Mia drew this picture for of me. As a witch. Then she made me sign it, Witch.

But then she made this, The Daddy List.

If for some reason you can’t decipher her excellent penmanship, allow me to translate:

1. Cook dinner (*Zach’s our resident chef)

2. Give wine Mommy (*this implies that I drink a lot of wine, which I most certainly do not, but I’m not going to turn down a glass either.)

3. Give dinner boy (*it’s unclear which boy gets fed while the other goes hungry)

4. Don’t forget TV  (*I can’t tell you what this means)

5. Wash dishes (*amen!)

Man, I love this girl.

 

 

 

Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon

I was going through some files the other day and found this piece I wrote when Mia was probably three. The timing is spot-on as Mia and I had just stood at the window and looked at a very different kind of moon. A classic Halloween moon – large and luminous and reminiscent of “It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown.” She’s still just as enamored with the moon today as when she first discovered it.

“Just like the ocean, always in love with the moon.”

This is a line, or actually a snippet of a line, from a Jeff Buckley song that perpetually plays in the back corners of my brain. It might be the simple beauty of these words strung together, or just the staying power of Jeff Buckley’s unparalleled voice, but it’s always there.

At around 18 months old Mia discovered the moon. “Moon? Moon?” she would ask each night. And we would look through the window in her room until we found it. Sometimes I would talk about the moon, its color, its shape. Sometimes I would recite Hey Diddle Diddle or lines from Goodnight Moon, but mostly we just stared at it together in the silence of shadows and moonlight.

One evening as an ice storm was approaching and Zach was working late, Mia and I set off for the store. We went to stock up on necessities: ice cream and marshmallows and pop corn and graham crackers and baby fever-reducer because what kind of parent doesn’t have a fever-reducer in the dead of winter? So I bundled Mia into the car and we made our way to the store.

“Please,” I begged the sky. “Thirty minutes. That’s all I ask.”

It was maybe 5:00. The roads and the sky were dry, and stray sun rays filtered through dense clouds.

When we got to the store the aisles were crowded and the lines were long. One hour later, ice spit at our faces as I hefted the grocery bags in one arm and pulled Mia in to me. Already the streets were glazed with ice. I had just put Mia in her car seat and wrapped a blanket around her, when the ice picked up speed. “Thanks,” I mumbled to the sky, and then I saw it: the moon taking refuge behind the clouds. It was a sliver of moon sketched into a charcoal sky. But still, there it was.

“Moon,” I whispered on the intake of breath. On the exhale, I knew that she heard. Of course she heard.

“Moon?” She twisted her body in the car seat. “Moon? Moon?”

I looked at her and back at the moon and back at her. In a split second I considered it: Risk a cold, an illness, perhaps a replay of the Great Ear Infection of 2007? But I grabbed her anyway, throwing the blanket off and grappling with the seat buckle. I lifted her out of the car and stood in the grocery parking lot. The moon was straight above us.

“There,” I said. “Way up there.” She wasn’t looking up far enough. The ice fell fast and furious, chipping at our cheeks. I cupped my hand over Mia’s face and said, “There’s the moon.” But I wasn’t looking at the moon anymore. Her face was intense, searching for the moon that I said was there until she found it. She smiled wide, arched her back and pointed high overhead. “Moon,” she said. And then looking back at me, “Moon.”

…always in love with the moon.

Why is it that we have children at all, if not for the wonder of it?